I'm bored!!!!!!

I have been stuck at home for most of this week. I can not go another week like this! I know the Dr. said that I shouldn't go anywhere or do anything but walk around the house and then rest; but seriously..I am going INSANE!!!

I did go to the Dr. on Tues. He said I looked good and took out the staples (17 if case you were wondering!*G*) He told me that I was a lucky lady because if I had not had the surgery that the "mass" would have continued to grow and it would have killed me! NICE! He said that it weighed 983 grams (almost 2 lbs.) and was "a big one" *L* Have I mentioned how much I like this guy? He cracks me up! Anyway, I asked if I could go the scrapbook convention next week and he said NO. Poor man I bet he thinks I'm going to listen to him! He doesn't know me very well! I've already paid for those classes and they have a no refund policy! Besides, I may kill some one if I am not let out on parole again soon!

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I must say I sort of see where he is coming from...especially after Weds...

I called Step-mom and asked if she could bust me out of here and we went to the park with my niece and nephews. I just sat at the picnic table and chatted with her while the kids played. We then went to get my paycheck and stopped by the bank on the way home. I was doing fine! Came home and rested for awhile and decided that I could go to the church Fellowship Night. I've gotta tell ya....I couldn't believe what happened when I walked in. My dad saw me first and when he said hey to me everybody started clapping and coming over to hug me! It was wonderful! Wish everyday was like that! *L* Several of the ladies came up to me and said they couldn't believe I was there.... I should be home resting! *G* But the funny thing was the men. I even got hugs from them and they seemed very concerned for me. It was very sweet!

After dinner Stepmom brought me home, I crashed and crashed hard!! I felt awful Thurs. & Fri. I could hardly move for the pain and just this crummy feeling that wouldn't go away. I got about 2 hrs. sleep on Friday night but by Sat. I was well enough to go out to dinner and a movie. "You Me & Dupree" (I'll give a review later) I have "rested" today per Sugarbritches orders but I feel much better than I did Thurs. or Fri. So maybe I have built up a little bit of stamina!

I told you that long boring story to say that hopefully I will feel up to the convention and can survive the 2 day event. I know I can not come home and complain about pain or anything after that though....SB will kill me! Well he may have to fight my mom for that previlige, but either way I'd be a dead woman walking! *LOL*

I Survived!!

Whew! Boy am I glad to be home!

We were told to be at the hospital at 7:30 am and my surgery would be at 9. Well, they finally came to get me at 10:30! The good news is that I was back in my room by 1:30pm! The Dr. came to see me after I got settled and said that the mass was indeed 1 mass and it was much larger than it appeared on the sonogram. I have always been an overachiever! *L* He said that it had become necrotid (sp?) which means DEAD and was causing scare tissue to build up. He decided that it would be too "dangerous" to take the uterus so he just took the mass and the left ovary. He came in Friday morning to check out the incision and to see how everything was going, after giving me the once over he said I could go home then if I wanted to! WOW! It went from staying 3 or 4 days to you can leave in less than 24hrs! Sugarbritches asked if I could stay one more night since he had to work and he knew we couldn't count on stepmonster to help out if I needed anything and the Dr. said sure! *G* Gotta love him!

So I came home Sat. afternoon. My stepmom brought over supper for us on Sat. and my mom brought over TONS of food on Sunday so SB shouldn't have to cook at all this week! My mom had asked me if there was something I wanted and I told her I missed her meatloaf and homemade biscuits. She brought all the southern favorites....fried chicken, meatloaf, cornbread and biscuits, greenbeans, homemade mashed potatoes, pinto beans (for SB...I don't eat 'em! *G*) and a banana cake for dessert! She said that she was sure SB wouldn't want to cook especially when he was working and that all of that would freeze if needed so he could just take it out and warm it up. My other SIL is suppose to bring dinner tonight.....we really don't need it but I don't want to hurt her feelings so we will take it and figure something out later! Maybe I'll invite everyone over for dinner! *G*

I am still very sore but I am learning to walk slow and take breaks every little bit so I should be up and running before too long!

Stepmonster continues to be just that, but I am not even worried about it! I have had so many people call to check on me, send me cards & flowers, help with meals, etc. that I know that I am loved. I have been trying to figure out a way to show these people how much I appreciate everything they have done.... a simple "Thank You" card doesn't seem to be enough. If you have any ideas, please pass them along.....

Hope you have a great week!

Tomorrow's the Big Day

I'll be heading to the hospital at 7:00 am and should be under the knife by 9! *G* Doc. said it shouldn't take more than a couple of hours so I should be in my room by lunch time. WooHoo. *G* He also said if I was a very good girl and was doing ok...he would send me home Sat. but I might not get to come home until Sun. Here's hoping for Sat.

If you don't hear from me for a few weeks...send a search party....or send flowers *G* Just kidding! I am sure everything will be fine and I'll be back to annoying everyone I know in no time!


Have a great weekend kiddies!

I dare ya!

to check out this video from the Knight Rider himself! And then I challenge you not to have this stupid song in your head for hours! *LOL*

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-3382491587979249836

The World Wide Web can be a dangerous place....

especially for a hypochondriac! :-) I have been doing a little research online about my surgery and let's just say "I shouldna done that"! I was told to bring any questions I might have about the surgery to my Dr.'s appt. on Tues. Well, I wasn't sure what I needed to ask so I went started looking around and if I wasn't nervous about the surgery before...I'm getting there!

I did get some very helpful information though, I now know to ask about biopsies, the CA125 test, and other simples things like..recovery time, when can I drive, that kind of thing. The questions that spooked me a little had to do with blod clots, donating blood (just in case?!?!?), bladder tacks. Things like that.

Looking at my list now it seems kinda funny that they made me nervous, but what can I say? I've never had an operation before so I'm entitled right?

I have been making lists all weekend of things that I need to get done before Thurs. I am going to try to have some dinners already made up so that all Sugarbritches will have to do is warm them up. Especially for the nights he has to work. I really can't expect him to work all night and then cook the next day right? I am writing out all the bills, getting the checkbook balanced, going to the grocery store, I've gotten some books to read and I have also made a list of movies I want to watch over the next couple of weeks....here are a few, if you think of others I should see, please let me know.

1. Rumor Has It
2. Rent
3. The Producers
4. Benchwarmers
5. Grandma's Boy

Oh, speaking of stupid movies...(4 & 5) have you seen The Ringer? OMG!!!!! I haven't seen a movie so politically incorrect in a long time! I am ashamed to say I laughed out loud several times! All I can say is "When the _ UCK did we get ice-cream?" Ahhh Good times!

Surgery

I think the idea of it is slowly sinking in. I must admit that I cried a little when I heard the words from the Dr. I know I am a big girl and big girls don't cry, but this one did! Just for a few seconds but long enough. *G* Everyone has been very positive and encouraging about the whole thing. Everyone but Stepmonster that is......I know, shocking right?


Can you believe that she hasn't asked what the Dr. said? Can you believe she doesn't give a $hit? I can!!!!!!! My stepmom said not to tell her anything unless she asks. I know that sounds terrible to some of you who actually have normal relationships with your step children, but it sounds perfectly reasonable to me considering how she has been treating me. She knows I have been in a lot of pain for the last few weeks, has she offered to wash a dish? sweep a floor? anything? NOPE! You read that correctly! She has done NOTHING to make it any easier on me! Her dad works a weird schedule so he can only do so much, and to be perfectly honest I feel bad even asking him to help out with the cleaning because he works so hard. And this causes me to get even more angry with her because she knows this, and still doesn't help. And then I get mad at SB because he won't tell her to do anything! He just does it and then fusses about it! Passive Aggressive much? Me thinks so! *G*

I wish I could blame her behavior on BF but as I have said before he really isn't the problem. HE actually asked me what the Dr. said yesterday. He said that she hadn't told him anything yet and I said that's because she doesn't know.....she hasn't asked. He couldn't believe it....asked ME what her problem was! I could have filled his ears full but decided to just shrug....he'll find out about her soon enough.

It seems that a lot of my posts have to do with the fued between she and I....that makes me angry too! It has started to taint everything in my life. I need to make some changes...I am just not sure what those are or how to go about them.....Any suggestions?

OUCH!....Men may want to skip this post!

I was going to post some of my ramblings that are still in the draft section but I need to tell you guys what's going on with me....not so much because I think you care but I need to talk about it and I am sure my family is sick of hearing it.....so lucky you!


First, let me give you a little back story........2 weeks ago I went to my dad's for dinner. I got up from the couch to check on something and I almost fell over from a sharp pain. It came from my spinal cord around to my belly button. I almost cried it hurt so bad. Since stepmom is a nurse she tried diagnosing me with several things before it was decided that I must go to the ER. Everyone thought I had a kidney stone......after several hours in the ER I was informed that it was not a kidney stone and they needed to do a cat scan. The wonderful morphine had kicked in by then so I was game for anything. Sugarbritches and I heard one of the staff say that I had a 20mm cyst. OK....not the best news but not terrible. When we ask about it we were told "Oh no it's not 20 mm...it's 20 CM!!!!" OUCH!!!!!!! Then the nurse had the nerve to pull out a tape measure and show me just how big 20CM is.....you go find a tape measure....I'll wait.......That's freaking big huh? She said it was the size of a canteloups and I needed to see a Gyn. immediately. As a matter of fact they had spoken to one and he would see me the next morning. WOW! Not sure about your area but you can't get a Gyn.'s appt. around here for months! So I was a little nervous that he agreed to see me so soon.

So, I go the next morning and once I go through the sheer joy that is a pap smear, and rectal exam! I am told that the ER docs were wrong. The "mass" as we are calling it now, is only 8.5X12X13 CM. Oh really???? Cause it feels like 20!!!!!! Dr. Fun wants me to have an ultrasound so he can determine exactly were the "mass" is and what our next steps should be. Only thing is, he is going out of town and wouldn't be back until today! And since he didn't trust anyone else but his people to do the ultrasound I have had to endure this pain and boredom for the last 2 weeks. Boredom comes from being told, "No Heavy lifting, no stress, just rest!" I have read several books, watched entirely too much TV and have just been miserable for it!



SO, all of that to say this..........


I went to the Dr. today for the Ultrasound......It is not 1 "mass".....there are 3 large cysts on my left ovary. YEAH! And when I talked to the Dr. this afternoon he gives me the good news. Surgery is needed as soon as possible. And in his words, it will be a "major surgery" for me. He will have to go through my abdomin because of their size. He will take the left ovary, my uterus and try to leave me the right ovary. Oh JOY! And it gets even better.....what I thought would be just an overnight stay in the hospital has turned into at least a 3 day ordeal! And the best part????? 6-8 weeks recovery time!!! I will be out of my mind by then. And if that isn't enough to brighten my day I am told by stepmom that not only will I feel drained for the first few weeks I won't be able to drive!!!! HELLO????? This can't be happening! I know that the sheer thought of not being able to drive will make me want to drive even more!


Anyway, I guess I should be happy that I am getting this taken care of. And to be honest the surgery wasn't really a fear until he told me I would have to be in the hospital for several days. That has me freaked out for some reason! The last time I had to stay in a hospital was the day I was born! I am not looking forward to this. I should know tomorrow when I will be going under the knife. If you pray, I'd appreciate you saying a short one for me.


Sorry for the long boring post.....I hope to return to my fun-loving self soon......

Wasting away again in Magaritaville

SB and I decided the spend most of Friday together alone. We did some shopping, walked around Broadway on the Beach, Chilled in Margaritaville and played some more Putt-Putt. It was a lovely afternoon and I really enjoyed just hanging out with him. I could really tell the vacation was doing him a world of good. He hadn't flinched about how much we were spending once! I couldn't believe it!


Everyone decided to join us for supper at Margaritaville...after an hour & 1/2 wait.....(we chilled out on the "Sand Bar" and people watched so it didn't seem that long)....we went inside for Cheeseburgers in Paradise! I wanted to eat here just for the atmosphere alone....I don't know if you've ever been in one of Jimmy Buffett's restaurants but he has the "cheese" factor down! I loved all the over the top decorations and the giant blender in the middle of the room was awesome. What I didn't realize was when "It's 5 o'clock Somewhere" came on that the "show" began. There was a giant hurricane cloud on the ceiling that began spinning around...lightening flashed and suddenly a large bottle of Margaritta Mix pours into the 10' blender! It was funny to watch as the waitresses filled glasses from the blender and took around to customers. The meal was ok, and the shopping was good....but the best part was just hanging out.......

Just one more day and vacation is over.....bummer!


Saturday - I finally did it! I rode SB's bike! He took me for a long ride down Ocean Blvd.....not the main one.....we actually went toward China Grove.....or as I call it "Little Mexico" I can see the attraction of riding along the beach and having the wind in your hair (no helmet law).....but I was not an easy passenger when it came to traffic....I almost had him drop me off along the side of the road but I hung on until we got back home.


And then it was time to pack up and head back home.....hope Stepmonster hasn't destroyed it while we were gone....

Dolphins, lunch, waves......not the best combo....

I must say that this vacation has been really nice....not too much going on but I am doing things that I have wanted to do for several years......

Thursday - Dolphin Cruise! 6 of us pack a lunch and head out to Calabash. I was so looking forward to getting on the boat and chasing dolphins all afternoon...... Took a few pics before getting on the boat, I rush to the front looking for the best seats. Didn't find a seat but did find the perfect spot for pics! After the Capt. gives us the safety drill, history of the boat, and weather report ( "2' waves...perfect seas for dolphin wacthing") we are on our way. I have my camera strap wrapped around my hand several times with SB standing close by just in case I drop it. Nervous much? *G* Just a few minutes into the cruise we start seeing packs of dolphins swimming along in front of the boat! I am soo excited I just love dolphins! I think they are just beautiful as they glide along the water. SB says he can get better shots from his angle so I hand him the camera and trust that I can watch them as he gets some great shots. Not a minute later he says..."Uh-Oh, you are out of memory" I pull the camera from him and start looking for pics I can erase from the memory......

Me: Ohhhh, I feel woozy......

SB: Look out towards the shore...find a spot and focus...it will pass...

Me: ooooo.....I'm gonna be...BLECH......BLECH.......BLEEEECCCCCHHHHHH..........oohhhhh

SB: go to the back of the boat....it will feel better back there....

Me:...ooooohhhhh....OK......

I take a few steps and hurl again! I finally make it to the inside of the boat and kind of rest there. I miss the educational part of the trip where the Capt. brings out all these different varieties of fish, shark, and plant life. I also miss the ride back......I stayed in that spot until the boat docked.....the whole time I'm thinking..."How am I gonna survive a week on a cruise?"


We go home and I rest/recover while the men head out to The Rat Hole.....sounds pleasant enough right? *L* Either they weren't that impressed with the place or they were VERY impressed and decided not to tell us when they got home *LOL*

Tuesday part duex

Everyone met up at the House of Blues for a free meal and concert around 2pm. The weather was great, the band was decent so not too bad. I tell SB that I want to go to the Alligator Adventure Park before we leave the beach and he says since we are so close we should go now. Ronnie's girlfriend has not riden his bike much so she decided she'll make the short trip on the bike...then my niece wants to ride w/ SB, and SIL joins brother, which leaves me and Christine in the car. OK.....no problem. A few minutes later all but Ronnie & Lisa head into AA. MAN! I didn't realize this place was so big! It took us almost 3 hours to go through it...it probably wouldn't not have taken so long but SIL had to take a picture of EVERY animail in the park! *LOL* I really enjoyed the park and can't wait to scrapbook all the great pics I got of feeding time! The guys went riding while the ladies came home and chiled for awhile.

BTW, I am already almost finished with my James Patterson book by now......


Wednesday - Nothing special happens on Weds.....just a little shopping at Broadway on the Beach. This is my 3rd day in a row of taking a morning walk...just me and my camera.....loving the peace and quite on the beach that early in the morning. Oh, I forgot...everyone, well almost everyone...not me mind you.....got a little crazy with the jello-shooters! It was kind of funny to watch grown adults get a little tipsy *G* Just another reminder why I don't drink much......*G*

Bike Week

I love vacations!!! I don't really care where I go as long as I have fun people to hang with.

We left for the beach around 11am on Mother's Day and arrived at the beach house around 4pm. Not bad considering we stopped for lunch and it rained most of the way there.

Once we unloaded and showed everyone around, I walked out on the beach with my brother and his family. The wind was fierce but I got some great pics of the surf. We ordered pizza and just relaxed all evening.

Monday - The guys got up early and went to unload all the bikes. I took a long walk along the beach....took my camera...got some great pics a jelly fish and other unusual things along the way. My brother's bike wasn't running right so he decided to hang with the ladies for the day. UH OH....this is not looking good for us! He will be a total pain the in A$$ if his bike doesn't get to running properly! We say a silent prayer that God will have mercy on us and then we head to Barefoot Landing. If you've never been, this is like a Giant Shopping Center surrounded by a man-made lake. We walked around all day looking at the bike vendors and shops. Christine is exhausted so I take her back to the house and we get ready for dinner. After dinner SB & I join Ronnie & Lisa in a fun game of Putt-Putt. I just love Putt-Putt even if I hardly ever win. I took my camera along and got a great shot of Ronnie's Hole-in-One. I am so loving this camera!

Tuesday - While I went on my morning stroll, I see several cop cars at a house up the street, curiosity gets the better of me so I walk slowly... *G*.... Anyway, it turns out the college kids who were staying at that house had accidently set off a fire alarm. I kept walking around the block and ended back up at the house as the cops are evicting the kids in the house beside us! We knew they were partying but they had not been loud enough to wake any of us..... so we all sat on the porch and watched as they were photographed along with their cars. The cops gave them 15 mins. to get out. As the cops were pulling out we asked one of the guys what happened. He said that they had set off the fire alarm about 3AM by using the fire extinguisher. He said that he didn't know why they waited 5 hours to come see what the problem was though! I agree! *L* Anyway, after asking if they could crash on our porch all 15 guys headed out to find somewhere to crash for the rest of the week. We sort of felt sorry for them until they told us they had been kicked out of everywhere they rented for Spring Break for the last 4 years!
Once everything settles down, Sugarbritches and his buddy Ronnie take a look at my brother's bike. In a matter of minutes they figure out the problem and have him on the road! THANK YOU LORD!!! I'm telling you it would have ruined everyone's vacation if he had to be stuck with us all week while the men road their bikes. We decide after breakfast that the guys will go riding around for awhile and we will meet up at the House of Blues around 2pm.

More of my fabulous vacation to follow tomorrow.....

Several Posts

I have several posts in the draft section that will be coming soon. Sorry it's been so long since I have posted. Once you read them you may understand........